Saturday, March 27
Tp blog... Or not to blog
Tp blog... Or not to blog
Tp blog... Or not to blog
I am not sure If I am going to keep this blog. I have way too many. And its kind of obvious that I haven't given this one the attention that it needs,
Heres a list of all of my blogs:
Being Violet Blog - the one your'e looking at - kind of my emotional blog, where my deep dark dirty secrets come pouring out.
Endless Nameless - AKA Nameless Endless. This is kind of a personal blog about the day to day things in my life.
My Ivf Journey - the blogs there , but as yet I haven't begun the ivf journey. First appointment is on APRIL 30th
Roses are Red - this is just a blogger template that I was experimenting with. It should get pulled down and moved to my Beding-Violet.com site ... just haven't time.
The SPike Files - NEWS blog - this is where I post the latest Spike Files news and info etc... part of my SPike site
Ultra Violet - kind of my violet as a webmaster of the Spike files type blog. Just a general overview of what Ive been up to on the net
The Spike Files Ramble log - for my spikefiles webmaster rambles.
There are also 2 others, one which I just deleted and another on its way out...
And thats just the blogs. I also have a livejournal which Ive never really used. I don't much like their layour etc. I think I'll stick with blogger. PLUS I have a couple of websites that I should mention
Being-Violet.com - it sucks right now, but will become the home to my Violet blogs
SpikeFiles.com AND
SpikeFiles.net - these are mirror sites that are identical. They have all my spike and buffy stuff on them.
So as you can see I have a lot of places on the web to call home. BUT i want to get it all organised and streamlined. SO thus some blogs must go. This post was never meant to be this long.. but as I type I realise that I should keep being Violet the blog.. But I will keep it semi private. I don't really want the visitors of either my ivf blog, or my spike site to know some of these secrets. But at the same time I want to be able to write about this stuff - and I want others experiencing similar to also be able to read it - hmm what to do
I think that IT might just be best to define what each blog is about and keep them all seperate, ALso delete any that are obsolete or just rubbish
Being-Violet - Will STay, however there will have to be some changes. I think i'll change it to private for the time being, and then Change its name, use a pseudonym to protect my privacy, and I will republish it on blogspot. This way I can talk about anything and not have to censor myself so much. It will continue to be a gritty, dirty, in your face emotional rollercoaster. - I may even move it to deadjournals as I think the content would be more appropriate there. I think I'll keep the layout , just tweak it a bit
Ultra Violet - I will move this to my Being-Violet domain and my Violet site will revolve around it - so Ultra Violet will be my creative Journal. For stuff like my digital art, brushes, fonts etc. This desperately needs a makeover
Endless Nameless will remain - But I think I'll tranfer that into my domain @ spikefiles - It will be my seekly - check out these super cool funky sites- - kind of thing. I will continue to post to it weekly - I may even turn it into my SPike WEb round up type of thing. It needs a makeover desperately. Ive decided to make this my once a week Ezine type column..
My Ivf Blog - will remain as just that. To publish everything from my ivf side of life. I hope to write well and maybe even turn it into a book. we'll see. It too may move over to being-violet. Unless I buy it its own domain - lets see how it goes and its visitors etc.
Spike Files NEWS - will remain, it will stay @ blog spot till I move it to my spikefiles host. I'm Going to change the format a little though. Instead of posting whole stories, I'm going to trawl the web every two or three days and just publish the links , along with a short commentary about each item. I'll try and work it so that each item opens up in a special Spike Files News Viewing thing. IF I find another blog, site etc that soes this I will discontinue the Spike Files NEWS BLOG as it is a lot of work.
The Ramble LOG - I think I'll spruce this one up, rename it and i May even try and do this one completely on my new server. Edit it and all via my site... or maybe just edit it through dmx. ANyway this is going to either change, or be replaced .. (BE REPLACED) with Spike Files Updates.
AND Roses are red.. that one can just stay for now. or I'll save the template and delete the blog I think is the best Idea. It took me forever to create. and it was my first.
So much for a little post.. at least now my head is kind of around it all.
Now maybe I can start giving the blogs a face lift, then I can begin giving Being Violet.com a face lift and rejuvination... well as soon as I can afford to move to a new host (in around 4 weeks.)
thankx for listening. I'm off to create a list of my blogs to print out and remind myself what is what!!
Violet
Tp blog... Or not to blog
I am not sure If I am going to keep this blog. I have way too many. And its kind of obvious that I haven't given this one the attention that it needs,
Heres a list of all of my blogs:
Being Violet Blog - the one your'e looking at - kind of my emotional blog, where my deep dark dirty secrets come pouring out.
Endless Nameless - AKA Nameless Endless. This is kind of a personal blog about the day to day things in my life.
My Ivf Journey - the blogs there , but as yet I haven't begun the ivf journey. First appointment is on APRIL 30th
Roses are Red - this is just a blogger template that I was experimenting with. It should get pulled down and moved to my Beding-Violet.com site ... just haven't time.
The SPike Files - NEWS blog - this is where I post the latest Spike Files news and info etc... part of my SPike site
Ultra Violet - kind of my violet as a webmaster of the Spike files type blog. Just a general overview of what Ive been up to on the net
The Spike Files Ramble log - for my spikefiles webmaster rambles.
There are also 2 others, one which I just deleted and another on its way out...
And thats just the blogs. I also have a livejournal which Ive never really used. I don't much like their layour etc. I think I'll stick with blogger. PLUS I have a couple of websites that I should mention
Being-Violet.com - it sucks right now, but will become the home to my Violet blogs
SpikeFiles.com AND
SpikeFiles.net - these are mirror sites that are identical. They have all my spike and buffy stuff on them.
So as you can see I have a lot of places on the web to call home. BUT i want to get it all organised and streamlined. SO thus some blogs must go. This post was never meant to be this long.. but as I type I realise that I should keep being Violet the blog.. But I will keep it semi private. I don't really want the visitors of either my ivf blog, or my spike site to know some of these secrets. But at the same time I want to be able to write about this stuff - and I want others experiencing similar to also be able to read it - hmm what to do
I think that IT might just be best to define what each blog is about and keep them all seperate, ALso delete any that are obsolete or just rubbish
Being-Violet - Will STay, however there will have to be some changes. I think i'll change it to private for the time being, and then Change its name, use a pseudonym to protect my privacy, and I will republish it on blogspot. This way I can talk about anything and not have to censor myself so much. It will continue to be a gritty, dirty, in your face emotional rollercoaster. - I may even move it to deadjournals as I think the content would be more appropriate there. I think I'll keep the layout , just tweak it a bit
Ultra Violet - I will move this to my Being-Violet domain and my Violet site will revolve around it - so Ultra Violet will be my creative Journal. For stuff like my digital art, brushes, fonts etc. This desperately needs a makeover
Endless Nameless will remain - But I think I'll tranfer that into my domain @ spikefiles - It will be my seekly - check out these super cool funky sites- - kind of thing. I will continue to post to it weekly - I may even turn it into my SPike WEb round up type of thing. It needs a makeover desperately. Ive decided to make this my once a week Ezine type column..
My Ivf Blog - will remain as just that. To publish everything from my ivf side of life. I hope to write well and maybe even turn it into a book. we'll see. It too may move over to being-violet. Unless I buy it its own domain - lets see how it goes and its visitors etc.
Spike Files NEWS - will remain, it will stay @ blog spot till I move it to my spikefiles host. I'm Going to change the format a little though. Instead of posting whole stories, I'm going to trawl the web every two or three days and just publish the links , along with a short commentary about each item. I'll try and work it so that each item opens up in a special Spike Files News Viewing thing. IF I find another blog, site etc that soes this I will discontinue the Spike Files NEWS BLOG as it is a lot of work.
The Ramble LOG - I think I'll spruce this one up, rename it and i May even try and do this one completely on my new server. Edit it and all via my site... or maybe just edit it through dmx. ANyway this is going to either change, or be replaced .. (BE REPLACED) with Spike Files Updates.
AND Roses are red.. that one can just stay for now. or I'll save the template and delete the blog I think is the best Idea. It took me forever to create. and it was my first.
So much for a little post.. at least now my head is kind of around it all.
Now maybe I can start giving the blogs a face lift, then I can begin giving Being Violet.com a face lift and rejuvination... well as soon as I can afford to move to a new host (in around 4 weeks.)
thankx for listening. I'm off to create a list of my blogs to print out and remind myself what is what!!
Violet
Sunday, February 29
And so I drown in self pity over the state of my exsistence - oh poor poor me - yeah right .. DOnt forget that No matter how self loathing and sorry for myself I get - I chose this path. It was my decision, even if I made my choices during a drug induced haze, they were still my choices. AND NOW.... I live with them.
I watched a truly hillarious comic on the world comedy tour today - Timothy (or maybe Thomas??) Tiernan. He had a truly funny take on kids, he has (or does he? so many comics make us belive what is truly a load of crap!!) a 3 yr old who changes his name everyday. Its not the name they gave him. Today he will be ... BAtman, or maybe even pocahantus. I know it doesn't seem funny to you, it never is when its stolen material being rugurgitated badly.. But damn the guy was funny, i actually hurt my lung.
I even got scared, Its been a hard week, blood clots in my lungs, being hunted down by police because I ran away from the mean nurse who really hurt me with her big needle, having insane ex friend bashing on front door & windows demanding I talk to her despite fact that I cant move due to fear clot will travel to heart/brain etc. Anyway she was all pissed because I threw something in the bin.. something that was mine anyway - fuck shes insane and I wish I wasn't so stupid to get involved with her in the first place.
God I can ramble on with absolute nonsensicle shit.
Anyway thats me for today - non sensical - if thats even a word.
FIRST BLOG POST - FROM EARLIER IN THE DAY
Well It Had to start somewhere....
Although I'm not sure where it should begin???
Today ? Yesterday? last week? last year??
Who knows
I'm pisces - the sign that is two fish swimming opposite directions and that image pretty much sums up me decision making abilities.. I can never decide.
ANyway the biggest things in my life are that Im female, I have a boyfriend and we have a child together - its all pretty urban normality, read:boring.. you know a dog and cat , two cars that kind of thing
However this weekend I got to drive around in this funky 4x4 jeep that didnt have any doors. I got a lot of funky looks.. always good for the attention addict!
oh I'm also on methadone - maybe future readers will be incredibly shocked to find this out - draw whatever conclusions you will - they are sure to be incredibly wrong and rather laughable at best!!
SO am I a junkie, do I have cancer, do I just enjoy drugs, or do I like to lie down and be keep in line by the government everyday handing me my medicine to keep me under their control...or am I just addicted..... who fucking knows.
I love the feeling - who wouldnt?? it's like everyday i get a shot of wake up happy juice - if youve ever been in pain and felt the sweet relief of any narcotic youll know the sweet exctasy I feel each and every day.
BUT IT TASTES DISGUSTING - its foul, sour bitter taste makes me want to puke... butI daren't waste a drop,...
Anyway life as an addict sucks at times, dont get me wrong. The second people find out they go from admiring my lovely home and amazing family - to putting me down and treating me like the plague.